Daniel Radcliffe @ Kill Your Darlings Set.
I didn’t recognize him scrolling through my dash oh my god!!!
My first thought was “omg it’s a hipster who’s trying to look like Harry Potter”.
I totally thought the first one looked like DCriss o.O
I NEED YOUR HELP! PLEASE!
I need your help, if you care enough to take a little bit of time to help me.
I posted a while ago about how I was auditioning for the role of Belle in the school musical. Today we found out who got who. I got chip. “But it was a really tough decision we speant hours talking about”, said one of the teachers.
Here’s the thing. A grade 8 got Belle. So much for the whole “seniors get priority thing they said” or the “a senior will be getting the main roles”. A friend texted me and told me before I got to school, I broke down. I still haven’t finished crying and it’s been over 12 hours.
This is what I need help with. Should I still do the musical? I don’t know if I’ll be able to or not because it’s all made me so distraught. I’m worried I’ll ruin it and just be a thorn in the side but I want to build up my acting resume for my career. I just honestly don’t think I will be able to do a rehearsal without crying or death glaring the girl who got Belle.
What do you think I should do?
Can I make it?
This year is my last year of school (Grade 12), for the school musical this year we are doing Beauty and the Beast. One of my favourite Disney Movies. So last year, I got a list of the songs and I asked one of the teachers who would be holding the auditions if there was going to be a song I HAD to learn. She said no, just as long as I sung one of the songs the character I would be auditioning for sings (which is Belle) so I did. And I have been practicing it since the end of november.
A few days ago, I went to a meeting about the musical, they’ve decided to have set songs you have to audition with. It’s not the song I’ve been practicing for 2 months. So I ask the teacher if I could sing the song I had been practicing, to no avail. So I had a little rant to another teacher about it and she said, they probably did that just to be fair, so I tell her the conversation I had with another girl going for the role.
“Yes! It’s the song I’ve been practicing!”
“Mmmm, I practiced a different one, I haven’t even heard the song we’re supposed to be singing”
“Oh, well this is the song, I helped choose it a couple of weeks ago. Miss was like ‘what song should Belle sing for her audition?’ So I said well this one would be good”
After telling my teacher this she said “that’s really not fair, but there isn’t anything I can do about it”
The worst part of the whole thing is that everyone has been saying to me: “You’re so going to get Belle”, “You’re perfect for the role”, “when I think of Belle, you’re the first person that pops into my head. There’s no way you won’t get it”, “You are so good, Casey isn’t going to get it, she’s pitchy and not very smart and a b*tch. She’s the opposite of Belle, plus you’re a much better singer”. I hated it, and people are still saying it. I want them to stop, I’ve told them to stop. I feel bad. It’s mean to say those types of things about someone, I feel uncomfortable when I get told I’m better than someone because I know how it feels to be on the other end. It’s also been getting my hopes up, and now, with the song change, I feel as it’s been taken away. I’m questioning my ability and whether I’m good enough.
I want this role so badley. Belle was always my favourite Disney princess, she was smart and kind and I found her so easy to relate to. I asked the other girl who is going for her “What if you don’t get Belle or Mrs Potts?” (They are the only two female leads in the musical. To which she replied “Oh well, it’s only a musical.”
IT’S NOT JUST A MUSICAL TO ME!!!!!! I aim to be in the acting industry! I don’t know whether or not I want to do film or stage, but none of that is going to happen if I don’t have experience!!!!!! How could she say it’s just a musical when my future depends on musicals or plays just anything that will look good on an acting resume?
I look at Darren Criss and go “how did he do that? How did he get to Broadway from A Very Potter Musical?” It gives me hope, but living in Australia I don’t have the opportunities others do. I want to act, that’s all I want to do with my life, act, sing dance I just love it so much, I live to act, it drives my soul and pulls me forward. It gives me faces to hide behind and new characters to create.
But now, I’ve lost confidence in myself, this other girl is getting to me. She’s got favouritism over the teachers, one of them has even said that if she doesn’t get Belle he’ll see what he can do to make sure she gets Mrs Potts. If I didn’t get Belle, could I still do the musical or would it be too painful to watch someone else in the role I so desperately desire? It’s like watching the person you love, love someone else. It hurts, sooooo much. How could just one song cause me to lose my confidence in myself? All that work and time speant practicing has been for nothing! But if I’m not good enough for a school musical, for a role everyone says that I’m perfect for, can I make it in the big leagues?
So, if you read all of that, wow, you must have gone through the same sort of thing once, or maybe you want to help or you just think it’s a stupid thing to get upset about.
Sorry for taking up so much of your time.
